just a quick post as I have more drinking to get too, for those of you few that have not found out yet, thursday morning i found out my gaining unit, and later that afternoon the girl that is going with me and myself came upon the facts that we might be deploying with the unit to Iraq very soon. We have heard mixed stories but are leaning towards the deployment just to be on the safe side. I have told most, and the few that i have missed have been either from having a hard time getting a hold of them...or some just don't care what goes on. but i have some drinkin to do. have a great weekend all. unless i decide to post again...then have a good time till that unfortunate posting comes upon you all.
posted by zefyur @ 1:16 PM,
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21 September 2005
…We all die alone…
posted by zefyur @ 6:30 PM,
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Her embrace is empty
Yet a feeling of complacity invites me
I go against the idea at first...
Thinking...
Hoping...
But soon give it to her convictions
Her words stab me like a dead of winter wind
The stings of truth sadden me
I hate myself
Yet I smile at the memories
Her touch is cold,
yet warm and comforting
I try to pull away as we get closer
But give in to the weakness
She cradles me and whispers empty promises
I open my eyes to the truth
She stands there staring back at me
Smiles and outstretched hands
I look back, looking
Hoping for...something
She promises, and smiles
I dare not fight it and follow
For I know...nothing
All that remain are memories
Bitter and Spite
She is death
And our endless walk is now my life
~Michael Kelley 19September2005
posted by zefyur @ 7:44 PM,
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Not really much to write at the moment, i just figured i should go ahead and put somethin in so i can say i at least started this sumbitch. I can barely read the screen at the moment, as i've been fighting....something, for the past week. i've been having really bad weakness and getting dizzy to the point where i almost fall. just earlier it felt like my feet were sweating but when i reached down to touch em, i was barefoot at the time, they were freezing. which is weird cause it isn't cold in my apartment...at least it doesn't feel cold. but yeah i'm comin down with somethin fierce, and i gotta in process into my new command here on tuesday which is just a splendid way to start things off. hey i'm the new guy, but don't ask me to do much as i can barely walk a wavy line at the moment. but yeah anyways my friends have been wanting me to post, and i promise as soon as i can focus i will post on how my trip from dc to san antonio then west and north to washington. till then i leave you with the lirics to a 40 below summer song "Wither Away" from the album Invintation to the dance. Great band so check em out.
Is it all just a shape, a twist of fate, that leaves me open
Will it all fade away, from my life, and leave me broken
It's all just game as you left me here to wallow
It's all been a fake and it's hard to swallow
And I wither away and die, tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die, clip my wings without you I can't fly
What if life were a dream would you be there waiting for me
Suicide in a sleep I'd rather die and have you miss me
And it all went away the pain of watching you deny me
I've fallen again, inside
And I wither away and die tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die, clip my wings without you I can't fly
I can't get away from myself (so far)
I can't get enough of your love (I can't escape)
And I wither away and die tomorrow's just another day to cry
I wither away and die, clip my wings without you I can't fly
posted by zefyur @ 7:59 PM,
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