FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!! God I wish something highly explosive would be lobbed over into my direction. Just end my pain and fucking stupidity, so I can stop constantly hurting myself over and over and over again. God! Fuck!! I hate my life! I hate myself! Fuck I hate love! Its filled with nothing but falseness and total let down! I'm on the phone at the moment with guess who??? I'll give ya a sec.........................
Yeah. Its Angel. I decided to call her, for some fucking reason. I wish I knew, I really did so I can go ahead and fucking stab myself or hell chamber a round and blow the back of my head off!!
Why does love do this to people?? Why do I keep doing this to myself? God I love her voice. Especially when she laughs, and she does this cute little childlike voice. Makes me want to cry out to her and hold her and just fucking....AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!
I hate my life. I just wish things were different...or...FUCK!!!
GODDAMNIT I LOVE HER!!! I CAN'T HAVE HER!!!! WHY CAN'T I GET OVER HER!!!! Why can't those fuckin Iraq's just come and kill me to help me out of this mysery I have found myself in and am having too much trouble getting out of...
posted by zefyur @ 8:42 AM,
3 Comments:
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At 1:42 PM,
Dancing Queen said...
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Don't get down on yourself too much. We have all been there.
Time heals all wounds. How long were you two together? Divide that by half and that will be how long it will take...I have no clue just saw it on Sex in the City:)
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At 10:21 PM,
zefyur said...
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really not much of a way i can think of as to responding to yer comment as i just woke up...but don't worry i am not forgettin June. I'm plannin on bein a fuckin alcohol wreck...I keep tellin everyone that when I come back I plan on bein on dialisis. so hopefully i can accomplish that goal.
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At 10:30 PM,
zefyur said...
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sorry all...its just a couple days till what should have been my 4 year anniversary...