well i have like two months left to go till my brief return back to san antonio. i know i should be more excited, but unfortunatly at the moment i'm not. i mean don't get me wrong it'll be good to see some friends again...but it isn't what i was wishing for as an r&r visit back four months ago. so much has gone on, and so much time has passed since certain events, and i still find myself lost...hoping for something, or someone to just take me away from the pain and mysery i constantly find myself in. i had such good hopes of comin home...somewhere...and seein angel...and now i dont have that. i don't have that truly special someone to look forward to seeing and holding again. no offense to specy and any others that read this that i may be seeing, but thats a void that not just friendship or family can fulfill. i don't know why i'm still clinging onto this, and draggin myself through the mud. but too me, for me, four years is a long time. i haven't had very many relationships that went that long...just one that i can think of...and that was one that ended bitterly as well...i dont know. i love her. i want her...i hate me. i guess its just my time of the month or somethin...who the fuck knows...anyways i really don't want to type anyomre. just figured i'd check in. gonna go for a run, and hopefully hurt my knee more. pain is good. hope all is well with y'all. peace out
~ frank the tank
posted by zefyur @ 7:41 AM,
